At first I tried reason. Technically, we were more like 75% of the way through, given that we have already grown a large majority of the food. But that didn’t help. I kept seeing too many big projects that lay in our future.
Then I tried turning to Alex for comfort. Surely Mr. ILoveSummerAndNeverWantItToEnd would have some words of wisdom. Maybe I could ride his energy train for a while. But when I confessed my anxiety, instead of reassurance, I watched him quickly spiral down my dark anxiety ridden tunnel. Uh oh.
But then last night as I gathered ingredients for dinner, in the orange glow of a setting sun, I saw the light! No joke. I was suddenly struck by the awesome power of summer and I started to look around. Surrounded by verdant growth and abundant fruits, this was it. This is what we spend the rest of the year working towards. It already feels like fall and before long it will be winter. And we will be bundled up in the house, waiting and planning for summer.
I am such an idiot. Here I am in the middle of everything I love, and instead of enjoying it, I am wishing it away. I felt so foolish, but also giddy and could that be, possibly reenergized? I threw away my ideas of a quick and easy dinner and went around gathering poblanos, jalapenos, tomatilloes, San Marzanos, garlic, and onions. Forget tomato sandwiches. Chiles Poblanos Rellenos De Queso for dinner it was!
And at 9:30, when we finally sat down for a late night feast, instead of feeling tired, exhausted, and hungry, I felt revitalized and excited for tomorrow.